Been too long...

My blog updating has gotten worse it seems. I used to average about a month in between updates and who knows how long it’s been since the last update. Hopefully while I’m on maternity leave, I can be a bit better about updating this thing.

I’ll be 34 weeks tomorrow and feel like my belly gets bigger every day. I can still fit in all my clothes (some better than others), but now have to hook an elastic around the button on my pants and wear my BeBand every day to hold them up. My heartburn/acid reflux seems to have gotten worse, so it’s been a little harder to breath and sleep sometimes, and my feet are now swollen, so I’ve been wearing flip flops or sandals every day now. Other than that, I’d have to say I’m doing rather well and only slightly uncomfortable. My next appt is on Tuesday, then one in 2 weeks, and after that we’re going every week. I’m a little nervous that we’re so close. But I’m not quite ready yet, so I hope it doesn’t go by too fast.

I can actually say now, that we have painted the baby’s room! We painted it weekend before last and I absolutely love it! We painted each wall a different color, which was a little harder than I expected, and we had a couple noticeable mistakes, but overall it really turned out awesome. We also set up the crib and arranged everything a few different times. I’m still not sure I like the set up of the furniture, but we’ll figure it out. I have to wait til my first baby shower to get my bedding set, and the stuff I wanted for the wall, but I’m excited to see it all put together.

Everyone else in the Whipp household is also doing well. Jase’s company has now split onto its own, so he’s officially with Myriad Pharma, instead of Myriad Genetics. He still loves his job and they love the work he does, so I’m very glad it’s turned into such an awesome opportunity. Not to mention that I love him being so happy.

Killian is still doing awesome in school, and we haven’t had any big issues in a long time. We’re still deciding for sure if we want to continue to do the therapy sessions, because they don’t seem to help him much, but haven’t come to any indefinite decisions yet. We started doing the therapy sessions once a month instead of every 2 weeks because it was a bit too much time off from work to work out with the baby appointment being every other week. The progress with adopting Killian has also come to a bit of a halt, but hopefully that will pick back up very soon.

About 3 weeks ago, we went to Lake Powell with my family. With the exception of the last day, it was a really nice trip and the weather wasn’t too bad. The growth of my belly was a bit inhibiting, but everyone was really understanding and I did ok. I got a little bit burnt the first day, so it was a bit hard to keep it from burning more, but I think I did alright. Jase also got a little bit burnt on his shoulders, but now it’s turned into a nice tan. Killian only got a little pink on his face this trip, but his cheeks still managed to puff up a little bit. When we got home, his pinkness started to crack and made him look like a wrinkled old man, but I couldn’t help but smile, he looked so cute! Considering he spent the majority of the time in the water swimming, and that’s the only thing he got, he did pretty well.

We were going to do another Lake Powell trip this week, but last Tuesday, Jase got rear ended while driving home, and his car now has to spend a month in the repair shop. We still have my car, and we were able to get a rental car, but decided that maybe it would be better if we were able to be contacted by phone in case something happened. Jase is a bit bummed out about not going, but we made up for it by scheduling a trip to St. George over labor day weekend. His grandpa and step-grandma live down there so we planned a visit. Jase’s parents decided to join us for the trip, so we’re going to see a show at Tuacahn, do a little bit of walking around fire valley and whatever else we feel up to doing. Should be a good trip.

The next couple months should be quite busy, but quite fun for us! We get to go see Depeche Mode in concert next week, got 3 baby showers going, I’m going to do a maternity photo shoot and make a belly cast, and my 28^th birthday, all before the baby is due. That is, if he comes on time haha. He’s due October 1^st, and my birthday is the 28^th of Sept, so it could be anytime around that. My wedding anniversary is the 3^rd of October, so I’m kinda hoping he comes in between that and my birthday, but I guess we’ll have to see how that goes.

Well I think that’s it for now. When I take pictures of Wesley’s room, I’ll make sure to post them.

I have actually had a few things to do at work, so I haven’t updated in a bit. If anyone actually reads this, I’m sorry for my slacking. In any event this should be a fun update, because we’ve had a lot going on the past few weeks.

I will start with baby news. We had our first ultrasound on the 6^th, and it’s a boy! I was a little disappointed at first because I was talked into it being a girl, but I’ve since come around and am very excited. I think I will love being the only girl in our house haha. Killian is so excited to have a brother. We took him to the park after the ultrasound and he told everyone there that he was having a little brother. He’s even made sure that his brother will have a good mom like he does. He’s so adorably clueless about how the baby process works. We’ve taken him to a couple doctor appointments and the ultrasound and he always asks “Do we get to take the baby out now?” He still doesn’t understand why we have to wait 5 more months.

A fun part of finding out what the baby is, is we got to keep it a secret. Only a few people knew we had the ultrasound, but we kept it secret until Mother’s Day. My mom and I made me a shirt with a little baby on it and once we found out it was a boy, we embellished the shirt. The baby was in the womb and had a thought bubble above his head that said, “Snakes, snails and puppy dog tails. That’s what I’m made of!” It was really fun to watch people read it and see if they understood. Most everyone got it right away, and there were a couple people that were a little slower and needed some help, but it was so much fun!

I am at the half way mark now, and am getting excited for all the things that are soon to come. I can’t wait to register, have baby showers and of course, get a big belly! I’ve already chosen the crib bedding set that I want, paint for the nursery walls, and the stroller and carseat.

We also painted our living room and foyer area this past weekend. My dad has been bored, so he came over and tore down all the wallpaper, spackled and sanded all the rough spots and so we were ready to paint. It took a little effort to choose the color both Jase and I liked, but thank goodness Lowe’s sells samples. Money saved in the end. Overall it looks great, we just have to do the finishing touches. Pics will come soon. We had hoped to start on the baby’s room, but the living room took longer than expected due to our 15 foot ceilings, so the other stuff will have to wait.

Last Saturday, it was Jase’s birthday. He and I went on a date Friday night to Brewvies and I threw him a surprise dinner on Saturday night. We usually go to dinner for his birthday, but I thought it would be extra fun to show up for dinner and have everyone already be there. We went to the Chinese Gourmet, one of his favorite places and he was so surprised. He’s 30 and I just wanted to do something fun for him. Happy Birthday babe! I love you!

Sunday, it was Mother’s Day and overall it was a fun day. My mom and I went to Jase’s mom’s for a Mother’s only luncheon and really had a good time. While we were there, Jase, Killian and Ron, Jase’s dad, went to see the new Star Trek movie. After lunch at Karen’s, we went to my Gma Judy’s for cake and ice cream. Everyone was there and it was fun to have everyone read my shirt and look at ultrasound pictures. For Mother’s Day, Killian made me a great picture with a poem and his hand prints on it. My mom got me a set of Aqua globes, and a butterfly candle holder for my bathroom. I told Jase I wanted to go shopping for Mother’s Day, but I haven’t decided when I want to do that yet.

The only bad part about the day, was on the way to Karen’s house. A mother duck and her babies were crossing the road and a car on the other side ran over one of the baby ducks. Those who know me, know I don’t do well with that kinda stuff so it traumatized me a little bit. Being as emotional as I am, it took a lot of effort for me not to cry, but even more effort not to turn my car around and ram into the back end of that other car. I hate hate hate people who have no concern for anything else, and it just enraged me. I luckily haven’t had any nightmares about it, but I wasn’t able to drive home yesterday on that road because I was worried the ducky would still be there. I just hope that I personally don’t even run over any animals, or I may end up in mental therapy.

One other new, cool thing. Jase got a new job! He now works for Myriad in a new pharmaceutical department. Everyone is really cool, and he loves it, so I’m happy. Not to mention that his benefits are better than mine. We signed up for his medical insurance and because of that, our baby will be practically no cost to deliver. It’s so awesome to have that feeling. Friday, some of the vendors he deals with, took him and his co-workers to Ifly, so it’s really been a great place for him to be.

Killian is still doing very well in school and only has little bit of a problem at home sometimes. He can recognize almost all of the letters and knows all the colors and shapes. We’re still working on recognizing numbers, but hopefully that will be good to go very soon.

Well I think that’s it for now. This week, I’m finishing my living room, maybe starting my baby’s room and having a Lia Sophia party. Next weekend is Memorial Day weekend, so I should have plenty to update next time. Until then….

MS Walk

Well it’s been a couple weeks since the MS Walk, but I’ve been meaning to share my experience. I think this is our 4^th or 5^th year doing the MS Walk but this one was a bit hectic, given my pregnant emotions. It started by us being late picking up my mom and Killian, so we didn’t get to trax on time and were late for registration. When we finally arrived, my mom registered for us while Jase and I went on a search for the free food. We wandered all over outside, and then were told the goodies were inside, where we just left. By this point, I really had to pee and I was worried we wouldn’t be ready for the walk start. We finally got our bagels, donuts and goodies and put on our shirts and numbers. After all the speaking and announcements, we finally got to walk.

The walk starts at the Gateway, and loops around the surrounding neighborhood, passed the old Children’s Museum and back. I think it’s total is about 3 miles. We first started walking and got a little behind, because I’d forgotten to pee and had to stop at the porta potties. While lagging behind, we caught up to a group called “Bob’s Army”. They were a rather large group and one of their members, I presume to be Bob, was walking with a cane and therefore walking slower. My emotions took over and I instantly started crying. It really touched me that this man’s whole team waited for him, making them one of the last teams walking. I’d been complaining about so many things, and it just humbled me to see this man. I’d felt terrible for all the things I had whined about, because compared to that, they were so trivial. I complain about my back hurting, and being tired and this man was doing it without complaint, slow, with a cane.

I finally recouped from my emotions, and we continued to walk. At the first rest stop, Harmon’s was giving out fruit and granola bars and a lot of people stopped to snack. We didn’t stop for long and ended up back in the middle of the group. From that point on, we walked with no problems and no emotions. The weather was a bit chilly, but I’m very glad it didn’t rain. We finished the walk and got back on the train to head home.

The rest of the day was emotional and tiring haha. After we got back to our car, we decided to get some lunch. We stopped at Subway for me and Killian and went to Apollo Burger for Jase and my mom. At Subway, we went through the drive through and the order just kept getting messed up. With my emotions being the way they were, I didn’t handle it very well and got mad at Jase. We ended up getting in an argument at Apollo Burger and Jase got out of the car and ended up walking home. My mom, Killy and I went to her house to relax and after we made up, Jase came over. Later that night we dyed our Easter eggs and watched movies. With the exception of me, the day was pretty good and it was a nice walk.

Update

For those who don’t know, I absolutely LOVE to read other people’s blogs! I find myself checking my blog every day just to see if anyone has updated theirs. I love to see how people are doing, what their houses look like and get fun ideas from the ones that have kids. If there are people out there that enjoy reading my blog, as much as I read theirs, I should really try to update more often.

Over the past month or so, I feel like we’ve been so busy, but I’m not sure how busy we have actually been. We did get some great things accomplished though, and some things which are still to come, but I’m optimistic that we’ll continue on a good path and continue to be happy.

I have still been thinking about being a stay at home mom. I’m still in the mode of not wanting to go to work, and my job is still so boring! The past week or so, I was given a couple decent sized projects to work on, but now that I’m finished with those, I’m back to being bored. I’m very glad that our IT guys took down the firewall, because I’ve been able to watch my favorite shows instead of watching nothing but movies. It’s nice to have more variety.

Jase is still at his sucky job, but he’s been really great and kept on trucking. Because his last job decided to stiff him on the last month of his pay, he had to work to get caught up on the couple things we fell behind on. But I’m glad to report, we’re back on our feet and he has a few jobs in the works. I just hope he ends up somewhere that he loves and that he can work for awhile.

Killian is also doing very well, and thanks to our nightly tutor sessions, he was able to move up to the next class at school. His behavior has been so much better and it’s really great that we could find something that helped him without putting him on medication. Our doctor said at some point medication may be a good idea, but he’s only 4 and that just seems too young to me.

On another Killian note, Jase and I had “the talk” with Jen, Killian’s biological mother. We have been thinking about talking to her about letting me adopt Killian for awhile, but when we got to a point that it was a good idea, something happened. We decided to buy our house first, then had some financial stuff come up, etc. Jase and Jen had a debt collection come up about the time we bought our house, and she worked with us to pay it off. She asked me to send her the paid in full letter when we paid our portion, so I used that opportunity as a jumping point and told her we wanted to talk to her about Killian. We arranged a time to talk, and although I was nervous, it went pretty well. She had suspected the reason for the talk, and had already talked to her therapist about it. Her therapist suggested that she think about it for 24 hours, but I told her she could take more time. That’s a huge decision, and in my opinion, not something that one could decide on in 24 hours. We haven’t heard back yet, and it’s probably approaching a couple weeks, but I’m still optimistic that she will be cooperative. She hasn’t seen him in over a year, and he doesn’t even know who she is, so at this point, it would be hard for her to come back in his life. She also really only seemed interested in the fact that if Killian wants to know her, that we will let him. I found that a bit interesting, because I think it would be hard to not tell him about her. He doesn’t really look like me, I don’t know anything about the first year and a half of his life, so I think even if I tried to keep it from him, he’d figure it out. But Killian and I have developed a bond and it will always be there, so if he has some curiosity about the kind of person Jen is, he can find out for himself.

My last baby appointment went well. Hearing the heartbeat was so amazing and it made the whole thing seem so much more awesome. My tummy is also starting to get hard now, so I get poked a lot haha. Jase is being so awesome and really making me feel great, so I love being pregnant even more. My next appointment is in a little over a week, and I’m sure things will continue to go well. I don’t get to find out the sex of the baby til the week after Mother’s Day, which upset me a bit, because I had a fun idea to tell everyone what it is. I guess I will have to come up with something else, because I don’t think I can keep it a secret until Father’s Day.

Things with Brittania’s move have changed a bit as well. She was supposed to move out this upcoming weekend, but sadly, her sister flaked out on her and cancelled the move. Last week she found another place and had scheduled to move out on the 18^th, but then found out that children are not allowed to live at this particular condo, so that cancelled that deal. I unfortunately had to tell her that we need her out by the end of May, but I hope she can find something that she can be happy with. I’m sure it’s hard to find a place with roommates when you have your daughter every week and every other weekend.

Well, I think that’s about it for now. Until next time, thanks to those who actually read my rambling.

Yay for babies, work and motivation! Woo!

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about being a stay at home mom when my baby arrives. I’ve been reading some other blogs a lot lately, and checking out facebook pages of some of my friends and I wonder if I could be happy and entertained staying home all day. Part of the reason is also because I’ve been in a non-work mode. My job isn’t stressful or anything. In fact, it’s the opposite. Most of the day, I have nothing to do, so I’ve been watching a lot of movies to keep my mind entertained. But whatever the reason, I just can’t seem to get the motivation to wake up on time to get ready, and sometimes I cry over the fact I have to go to work.


Jase’s job currently isn’t helping with that situation either, which makes it twice as hard. Jase’s last job sadly went under so he was kinda forced to find another job. It’s good because it’s a steady income and his last job was 3 weeks late with every pay check it seems, but he really doesn’t like the job he got and doesn’t feel like it’s where he should be. It’s depressing for him to go to a job that he doesn’t like and doesn’t feel like he’s worth anything, so it makes it really hard in the morning not to just call in sick for the day. But it’s only the 2nd week, and I’m trying to be optimistic that we will find something else so he doesn’t have to stay there very long.


Since my last blog, we’ve had a couple more appointments with Killian’s therapist. Our last appointment was with the medical doctor instead of the therapist. In order to seek out medical options, we have to visit with a medical doctor because the social workers aren’t able to prescribe medication. We met with Dr. Anderson for about an hour and a half and he asked us and Killian quite a few questions. He said that there’s no doubt that Killian has an attention problem, but if it were his child, he would refrain from putting him on medication until he starts kindergarten or first grade. I definitely don’t like the idea of putting Killian on medication, but with how pushy his daycare has been, it seemed like something to try. But we’re going to try fish oil caplets and continuing our nightly tutoring sessions and see how far we can get. I guess if we have to put him in a preschool that has less children, it’ll be better for him in the long run. His teacher said that he’s doing much better with the phonics he was behind on, so we’re now going to try to learn the letters A-G. After my session last night, I can tell it’s going to be more difficult than I thought. Wish me luck!


I have my next baby appointment next Monday. I know I get to listen to the baby’s heartbeat, and I’m excited to hear that he/she is doing ok. It’s about another month before we can find out the sex of the baby, and I’m so stoked for that! I want to find out before Mother’s Day so when we have our big family get togethers, I can tell everyone at once! I thought about doing something fun and making Killian a shirt that says “I’m going to have a little brother/sister” and see how many people actually figure it out. Should be fun haha.


This upcoming Thursday, I will be 12 weeks along. This marks the end of my first trimester and I’m really hoping that my nausea dissipates and that I get more energy. I don’t sleep very well, so by the time I get home after work, I’m so tired I don’t want to do anything. Our house work has slacked off a little because of it, because it’s not fair for Jase to do everything himself.


Brittania is also moving out at the end of April, so after she moves, we will need to get things moved around so we can paint the baby’s room. I can’t tell you how flippin excited I am to paint the baby’s room! I’ve got 6 colors picked out and I plan to do each wall of the room a different color. One wall is cornered, so it could actually be done in 3 colors if I wanted to, but I’m not sure what I will do yet. I want my friend Adam to paint some designs on one of the walls along with the baby’s name so the colors pop. Another goal of mine is to get my front room finished, but we’ll see how that goes. It’s been much more of a pain than I thought to tear down the wallpaper so that’s gotta come down first. After that it should be easy, because all we’re doing is painting and putting up a chair rail. Now I just gotta get the energy!


We reactivated our gym membership last night, and I’m glad. I have been reading a lot and am a little worried that the extra baby weight is going to make things tough on me. I’m not super active anyway, so I don’t want the added weight and aches to get me down. I can’t do anything that’s really active, but the treadmills and some weight lifting would be really good for me to get my back in shape and my heart ready for the breathing.

Hopefully this all will turn into a good thing for all of us. *crossing my fingers*

Valentines Day Weekend

So now that it’s over, I can talk about my Valentine’s Day weekend. Awhile ago, Jase and I went to Wendover just for a day to get away from things. For Valentine’s Day, I decided it would be fun to go again, except I didn’t tell Jase we were going. I booked a room for Friday night and told Jase we had dinner reservations. In the meantime, I packed a bag for us and had everything ready to go. To make it more fun, I made a coupon for a reservation at our hotel and put it in a cute envelope for him to open. I got on the freeway to “go to dinner” and handed him the envelope. I figured that eventually he would figure out we weren’t going to dinner and an hour and a half drive is a bit long to keep it a secret.

Because our bedroom set was being delivered on Saturday, I had to come up with a reason we wouldn’t be home for the delivery. So I told him we had something planned for Saturday. He opened the letter and read the coupon and said “Oh, we’re going to Wendover tomorrow?” I laughed and told him we were going right then! He was so surprised, and it was really cute! When we got to Wendover, we checked into our room and went to have some dinner. I was a little annoyed at that point because my debit card wouldn’t work to pay for the hotel and I had only brought cash for gambling, but luckily the ATM was allowing me to take more cash out.

We had a little struggle deciding what to have for dinner. The buffets are always nice because it’s cheaper and Jase can eat as much as he wants (which is A LOT!), but Friday apparently is Seafood night. I’m not a huge fan of most seafood and some of what I do like, I can’t eat due to being pregnant. We looked around the buffet and there was Salmon and some Mexican food that I could eat, but we decided to bag it. $24.95 a person for me to eat Salmon and refried beans was hardly worth it. So we ended up at a regular restaurant and had a nice dinner.

We stayed overnight and did some gambling and overall, we had a really good time. When we got home, we arrived to our new bedroom set all put together. It’s just gorgeous and I love it! At first I was a little weirded out because it’s larger than our old one, but it’s growing on me. I hate to say it, but it makes me feel a little more posh having all matching furniture in my room haha. As a thank you for hanging at my house waiting for our furniture, we took my mom to dinner. She also did my dishes, a few loads of my laundry and tidy’d up my family room so it was the least we could do. Wonderful Valentine’s Day weekend!

Thursday before last, we had Killian’s assessment done. It was a very interesting process. When we first arrived, we had to fill out some paperwork and sit through an orientation. The orientation basically went through the whole process, what kinds of therapy they offer and I really learned a lot. Next we met our therapist, Michelle. She was very nice and I think I will really grow to like her. We went into her office and while Killian played with her toys, she asked Jase and I a ton of questions. We went through everything such as why we’re there, what his family history is, and she even talked to us about adoption. I felt it was necessary to admit I’m not Killian’s biological mom, although sometimes it really bothers to me to do it. I really love being his mom, and it’s a little hard for me to hand part of his history over to Jen. When we started talking about Jen, Michelle was really surprised at how long it’s been since she’s come around and asked us if we’ve considered adoption. We have thought about it and basically planned to try, and she was very helpful in how to go about it. Overall I think it was a great session but she won’t be able to diagnose him until our next appt which is March 2^nd. So far, I think we’re all leaning towards ADHD, but Michelle says medication and therapy has come so far and she’s confident we can fix it before Killian goes to Kindergarten.

I had my first OB appt last Thursday. I answered a bunch of history questions, took a pee test and had my blood drawn, so nothing too exciting. They did give me some goodies, which included an awesome magazine that shows baby development month by month and the birth process. Until we find out what the baby is, we’re calling it by its size. This week it’s KB, short for Kidney Bean. The baby website I signed up for, sends me emails on how the baby is growing and about what size it is. It has an entire article that compares the size of the baby by fruit to the size of a quarter. It still amazes me that when I reach 40 weeks, the baby will be the size of a small pumpkin. Ack! Oh well, I assume if so many other people have done it, that I can do it too.

Fun Thingy

20 years ago: I was 7. I guess that puts me in first grade? My teacher was Mrs. Sleight. I don’t remember much about her.

10 years ago: I was 17. Finishing up Jr. year of high school. I think I was working at Hollywood Video, but not dating Sterling yet.


5 years ago: I was 22. I don’t think I was dating anyone because the previous few months, were hard for me. My BF at the time, broke up with me. I lost my best friend to a witch who wouldn’t let him talk to me or his family, my grandpa died, etc. Although I did become friends with Becci and Adam so that was the highlight of that year.

3 years ago: I was 24. I’d been at my current job for only a couple months. I was living with my BF, Jason, in my first apartment away from my mom and things were starting to go downhill. I don’t think I’d quite started talking to Jase (my hubby) yet, so things were kinda in the middle of being good and being bad.

1 year ago: I was 26. I had only been married 4 months and we were getting ready to start looking for houses.

1 month ago: I had only been back at my normal job for about a week and was bored silly.

1 week ago: We bought our new bedroom set!

1 day ago: I wasn’t feeling well and took a nap on the couch. Then my dad came over to play on the computer and Jase’s parents came over to give us some cookies they made. We went to dinner at Gma’s and I fell asleep on the couch again when we got home.


I am: at work and bored silly.

I think: I should really ask for more things to do so I don’t go nuts!

I know: that I’m happy in my relationship, despite what I hear others think.

I want: a lot. I’m a very jealous person

I dislike: my weight right now, and it’s gonna get worse

I miss: singing and hanging out with my friends

I fear: Losing a loved one.

I feel: anxious

I hear: the hum of the heater under my desk. Brr it’s cold today.

I smell: dirt. My work smells like dirt

I crave: taco bell

I cry: all the freaking time. During confrontation, when I’m upset, when I Get my feelings hurt, etc.

I usually: have nothing to do

I search: for the answers to my questions

I regret: not singing more, being afraid, not standing up for myself

I love: my husband, my son, my mom, my family and my friends.

I care: about how others see me

I always: feel tired

I worry: that I’m going to be an awful pregnant lady

I am not: motivated to do much

I remember: every one of my boyfriends names and most of their phone numbers

I believe: that I could be better

I dance: in the kitchen when I’m in a good mood

I sing: in the car all the time

I don't always: eat right, exercise, get enough sleep

I argue: about one dumb thing at least everyday

I write: in my blog

I win: every argument I can, of course

I lose: myself sometimes

I wish: I had more confident and motivation

I listen: to music on my way to work everyday

I don't understand: a lot of things. Why I’m so scared of things, why people don’t make the right decisions, why certain people haven’t learned lessons

I can usually be found: at work, on the computer

I am scared: of being a bad person, people dying, pets dying, not being happy

I need: to pull my head out of my butt and realize there’s more to being happy than what everyone else has

I forget: hardly anything. I remember weird silly things that most people wouldn’t.


I am happy: when I’m with Jase, when I’m home safe and sound, when I have friends, when people care about me, when I see rainbows, when I have money to spend on frivolous things, when Jase’s says he loves me, when Killian says he loves me, when my mom isn’t embarrassed by me, etc.