Monday, December 29, 2008
Goodbye 2008
I think we went to a movie, so maybe in the parking lot or driving home?
Were you in school (anytime this year)?
nope, all done with that nonsense
Did you have to go to the hospital?
My friend Kristen had a baby
Did you have any encounters with the police?
Most likely since we lived in our apartment half the year. Neighbors were a bit ghetto
Where did you go on vacation?
went to St. George, almost to yellowstone
What did you purchase that was over $500?
haha my house!
Did you know anybody who got married?
Nope but a couple who got divorced.
Did you know anybody who passed away?
A few people
Did you move anywhere?..
I did, into my new house!
What sporting events did you attend?
um... don't like sports so none
What concerts/shows did you go to?
Dokken/Poison
Where do you live now?
In Murray, in my new house, duh
Describe your birthday:
It was on a sunday, so we had family and a few friends over for cake
Did you get any tattoos or piercing?
nope
What's the one thing you thought you would never do but did in 2008?
I dunno
What has/have been your favorite moment(s)?
Buying my house, moving out of my crappy apartment, Killian being potty trained, etc.
What's something you learned about yourself?
I have learned a lot about myself actually. I'm good at my job, I stress out easier than I thought I did, I hate people who are inconsiderate, my car is soooo not worth it, I am grateful for all I have cause I've fallen on my ass a few times.
Any new additions to your family?
Marshmallow, my kitty. Well my sisters kitty, who lives with me for a bit.
What was your best month? I think June...Jan through May kinda sucked, Jase didn't work July or August so I was stressed, September I started training for a new job which has since stressed me out, October too many things happened, November was ok, December was Christmas.
What music will you remember 2008 by?
Um I dunno.
Made new friends?
I sure did, and became better friends with some friends and realized I don't wanna be friends with some friends anymore.
Favorite Night[s] out?
had a good time at the Poison concert
Any regrets?
I always regret something....but it's usually how I reacted to something.
What do you want to change in 2009?
Myself, my finances, my living room (dang it)
Overall, how would you rate this year?
I am grateful for it, but it was a bit of a hard year for us.
What would you change about 2008?
I would have lightened up over certain things, but I did learn something from it all.
Other than home, where did you spend most of your time?
work prolly, which sucks
Have any life changes in 2008?
Bought a house.....and tried to have a baby...guess that will be 09
Change your hairstyle?
A couple times....already wanna change it again.
Get a new job?
kinda, stopped doing warranty stuff at work and went back to the front desk full time, and now covering for Kristen while she's on maternity leave.
How old did you turn this year?
27
Do you have a New Year's resolution?
I would like to be a better mom, help Killian, take care of myself, be nice to certain people
Did anything embarrassing?
I'm sure there was
Buy anything new from eBay?
nope
What was/were your favorite purchase[s]?
Redundant....my house!
Get married or divorced?
Nope, celebrated my first wedding anniversary though
Get arrested?
lol no
Be honest - did you watch American Idol?
I did
Did you get sick this year?
a couple times
Start a new hobby?
Not really
Been snowboarding?
nope
Are you happy to see 2008 go?
yup... bye! It was stressful
Drank Starbucks in 2008?
nah, not a coffee person
Been naughty or nice?
I'm always nice.....
What are you wishing for in 2009?
a baby, a changed living room, financial stability
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Jase and nothing but the Jase
In the parking lot at work. We spent all day talking to each other via email, and he said he wanted to kiss me. We walked out to our cars together and were both so awkward and it just happened out of nowhere. I was really worried someone would see us.
Maybe
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Stress
The next few days, I was in a little panic to get a few things done. Debbie, the other A/P lady, was getting overwhelmed herself so she gave Kristen/I a few of her vendors to take over. She gave me a stack of invoices about 3 inches thick, so I was worried, I wasn't going to get them taken care of, and eventually they'd pile up. I spent a couple hours getting them all entered and paid, so now my weekly check run load isn't quite as bad.
Then the big stress came....Komatsu America. Komatsu America is kinda like the sister company/owner of my company. Every month, we get invoices from them to pay. These invoices are split up by branch and a check is cut for each branch. I spend the whole month entering these invoices, then once a month, I cut the check. I add all the entered invoices onto my check run, and fill out a spreadsheet with all the information on the statement. There are some invoices that I don't pay, due to machines not being sold, no copies of invoices, etc. I list these invoices on my spreadsheet. After I add all my invoices to my check batch, my total should equal the total of my spreadsheet, after all the not paid invoices are included. When it matches, I have the go ahead to print the check. If it doesn't match, I have to figure out why and correct the problem. So the Friday before Thanksgiving, I start my KA check runs. I cut the check for Vegas with no problem. Then I add invoices for Elko, and my balances don't match. I figured out my error and printed the check. I cut checks for the other branches, and wait to do SLC last. I enter my invoices and my information doesn't balance. I made sure every invoice was on my batch, and everything I wasn't paying was listed on my spreadsheet....still not matching. I went back through and made sure all the amounts were correct....they were but still no match. I decided to ask Debbie, the A/P manager for help. She takes my binder of over 700 invoices to see if she can find the error. At this point, my confidence has gone down the toilet. I got home and just bawled and bawled. I felt so stupid and incompetent by the end of the day, that I was dreading going back to work the following monday. I will sick with panic and worry.
Monday came, and I had to go back to the dreaded evil place called work. Debbie still had my binder, so I worked on other things. Tuesday, I did my weekly check run...Debbie still had my binder. Wednesday, she finally gives me back the binder. She didn't find the error, but did find some things that weren't listed on my spreadsheet so I made the necessary adjustments. Still didn't match, so I went through everything again.....this time I had found my errors! I corrected them, printed my check, had all my checks signed and FedEx'd them to Komatsu America. I was kicking myself in the butt for not finding my mistake earlier, because it was so simple. A little bit of my confidence had been restored. Now, I just have to make sure I enter all the new invoices and hopefully the check printing will go better next time.
Last Wednesday, Kristen had her baby....little Sophie Ann. She was a week late, and started contractions 2 days before and the docs at the hospital kept sending her home because her contractions weren't close enough together. Wednesday morning, Sophie entered the world. Jase, Killian and I went to see her in the hospital that night. What a darling baby girl! I got to hold her, and it just felt so neat. And Kristen was great and explained the experience to me. One thing, I love about Kristen is that she is open and not afraid to talk about things. When Sophie had the hiccups, Kristen let me feel her tummy and I just thought that was so cool. We spent a little time with her, then left because Killian started to act up a bit, but I am really glad we got to go see her. I really cherish my friendship with Kristen and hope we can continue to be friends and grow closer. I can't explain it, but there's something about her that makes me really want to be her friend. I just hope I don't creep her out haha.
To add to that stress, a couple weekends ago, I got in a fight with Jase's mom. We wanted to include everyone on Thanksgiving so we asked her to change her dinner time to an hour earlier so we could spend more time at their house. During the email conversation, she got offended and got mad at me. She didn't say it outright, but I had the feeling based on what she was saying to me. The following weekend, we went to their house to get something, and I could tell she wasn't quite herself. While Jase was outside helping his dad with something, she looked at me with a very sturn look in her eye, and very firmly said that Killian was her grandson and I needed to share. With my emotions on the edge, I started to tear up and walked outside, which caused Jase to ask what was going on. Jase then asked his mother and she went off and started complaining about me. I jumped in and we basically argued for about 20 mins. Turns out she was mad because we were going to more than one place on thanksgiving, and she expected me to pick one place and eat there. I think it boiled down to us not eating at her house alone and then she accused me of spending more time with my family than I do with hers. At that point, I lost it because we do a lot to spend time with her and she was completely over reacting. After a week of calming down, Jase talked to her via email and found out the root of her problem. Jase's brother Chris, joined the army and spent almost a year in Iraq. during this year, his wife, Peggy basically fell off the face of the Earth. She didn't come to any events, any parties, any dinners and moved and didn't even tell anyone. Karen was worried we were going to start hanging out with my family more and forget about her. I assured her that would never happen, so things have seemed to level out. We still went to their house for Thanksgiving and although it was a little awkward, it was pretty calm. It was scary for me to get in the argument with her because it's very important that she like me, but on the other hand, I think it was good for us. I think she realized that she over reacted, but also realized that there was some truth to what I said. We can't drop everything to accomodate everyone so some negotiation is needed to make everyone happy.
Things at home are doing ok. We put up our Christmas lights, our tree and our decorations and our house has a great Christmas feeling to it. I absolutely love Christmas and love lights! And this year, we have a house to decorate and it's a wonderful feeling.
Brittania is still living with us, and still isn't home too often. She seems to go back and forth a little bit with the relationship she is in, and I can't help but feel bad for her. I wish there was more I could do help her, but I think it will have to be something she works out on her own.
Brittania is paying us rent each month, and we've decided to use her December rent to make a CD. Some of you may know, but I love to sing, and every couple years or so, I make a CD for my family. It's good to do around Christmas, because it's an easy way to do gifts for everyone. It's also reasonable in price, so that helps too. I am really excited because I haven't done a CD in 3 years. I also think it will bring a little of my sparkle back. For the past little while, I have been depressed about not being able to sing as much. When we bought our house, one of our goals was to turn the downstairs bedroom into a singing room for me. I wanted to paint it, and set up all my stuff and just have a place to go when I'm sad or angry and just sing. Singing makes me feel so peaceful and it lets a lot out of my soul. Unfortunately, I can't have my singing room right now, but hopefully doing a CD will help me feel like me again.
Well it's late, and I've gotta get to bed. If I don't go to bed by 11:30, I have a much harder time waking up in the morning. Goodnight.
Monday, November 10, 2008
things have been a bit stressful the past few weeks. i started training with kristen, and we hired a "temp" to cover my job. since they found a temp they really liked, it was decided that i would just stay in the other building and let them temp take over my job. at first, i was a bit weirded out by it, but it turned out to be a good thing. for the past month or so, i've been training with kristen and learning all i can about her job. as of this upcoming friday, she is gone for 3 months and i am so freaking nervous. i feel like i keep forgetting little things, and i almost feel incompetent. i hate that feeling. i am so good at my job and i want to learn new things, but i'm very worried i will lose everthing i've learned next week. and to make it more worrysome, next week i get to do the komatsu america check run. komatsu america is a big part of that job and once a month, i get to cut checks to them for each of our branches. the checks are in the millions of dollars, so it's a big deal to make sure i do it right. i think after i do the first check run by myself, i will feel a bit better about things. at least i sure hope so. i really don't want to be a disappointment. *crosses fingers*
home life has gotten a bit interesting lately. my friend brittania moved into my basement a couple weeks ago. the last time i had a friend stay with me, it was a bit conflicting because sometimes we got on each others nerves and sometimes arguments broke out. not necessarily with me, but it made me nervous in regards to brittania staying with me. i really don't want to ruin a good friendship. but i wanted to be a friend and she needed somewhere to go.
so far she's been with us a couple weeks and it's been a little hard to talk to her. i know she's in a rough period and i don't want to pry into her business or make her talk about things she doesn't want to talk about. so right now, i've pretty much been there if she wants to talk, but not asked a lot of questions. i hope she figures out what she needs to and finds some happiness. it doesn't seem like she's happy and i know from personal experience that that isn't a fun place to be.
tania has a little girl, who comes over a couple times during the week and every other weekend. that part has also been a little difficult for me, because it's hard to discipline someone else's kid. i think it's also hard for tania to do it, because she doesn't see her all the time and wants things to be fun. but sometimes she steps over boundaries and jase and i have had to get a little strict to get her to listen.
since tania has moved in, marshmallow has been peeing on our couches. at first we thought it was matsu so we tried to come up with ideas as to what would make him not use his litter box. we decided that maybe he was threatened or mad at us for tania moving in, or maybe that harmony was being a bit rambunctious and he was afraid of her. we testing our theory and locked matsu in the spare room during the times we weren't home and discovered it was actually marshmallow. we haven't figured out why he's doing it, but we lock him up now so our couches have been pee free. we've deep cleaned them to get the smell out of the cushions and the cleaner we got says it's got a pheromone that will keep him away, so hopefully that will work. the smell got so overpowering that it was hard to be in our front room and our big tv is in that room, so it was hard not having our comfy area.
in other news, we made it through the tightness of october and are doing well. we're still working on paying a few things off, but i'm optimistic that we'll continue to do fine and get better along the way. we survived halloween, killian's birthday and my mom's birthday and this month is much more relaxing. killian turned the big 4 at the end of october, so we had a party for him. we really had a great turn out and he got some great stuff. i love his birthdays, especially because he always gets new clothes. my mom's birthday was a couple days later, so we took her out to dinner. halloween followed and it was really fun! killian dressed up as superman and we got to take him trick or treating in our neighborhood. our neighbors are so awesome so it was a great night. one of our neighbors parked a van on his grass and put dummies underneath his tires. he had music playing, lights flashing and a video camera that showed everyone walking up his driveway. another house a street over had a bunch of stuffed zombies in their yard. the people who lived there dressed up as zombies too so it was so neat. they put a table in their driveway and put bloody body parts all over it. one house decided they were done passing out candy so they dumped the rest of their candy into killy's bag. it was almost half a big bowl, so he was so excited. we're still eating candy every night haha.
well it's time for bed, and i'm tired, so i'll update more later. goodnight.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Prop 8
I would hope that a gay couple wouldn't want to have their marriage in an LDS temple, especially if it's just because they can, but I guess there are some people like that out there.
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Proposition 8
I've thought about writing a blog about this a lot recently. I see when my Facebook friends change their status, change their profile information and join groups. Recently I have seen quite a few friends join a group 2 different groups that support California's Proposition 8. To see this really makes me sad, because I completely disagree with the proposition. I think everyone should have the same rights. Everyone should have the same rights to college scholarships, jobs, voting, etc. regardless of skin color, gender, or sexual preference. I did a bit of research a couple days ago, and found a site that stated specific examples of what will change if the proposition doesn't pass. I disagree with what was said and feel the need to vent about it.....
Statement: Children in public schools will have to be taught that same-sex marriage is just as good as traditional marriage.
The California Education Code already requires that health education classes instruct children about marriage. (§51890)
Therefore, unless Proposition 8 passes, children will be taught that marriage between any two adults is of the same worth, regardless of gender. There will be serious clashes between the secular school system and the right of parents to teach their children their own values and beliefs.
My opinion: I highly doubt that a religious school that didn't support homosexuality, would have a gay couple try to attend. For example, it seems out of the ordinary that a gay couple would enroll at BYU, when the LDS religion doesn't support their choice.
My opinion: This is just dumb. Everyone should have the right to say what they want to say without it being considered hate speech. There's an amendment for freedom of speech for a reason. Sadly, there are dumb people in the world that will sue over anything, like crashing an RV because the cruise control didn't keep the car going straight. Lame.
My opinion: I don't think anyone should have the right to refuse service to ANYONE for ANY REASON. There's a reason you get paid for a service. It's your job! You don't want to deal with people that aren't exactly like you, live in a damn cave. This is America. The place where not a single being is exactly the same as the next.
And in regards to the lawsuits. Again, there are dumb people in the world who will sue someone over anything. Until we can all live in unity, that will always happen. Unfortunately, the only way we can all live in unity is to accept each other as we are, no matter what. This includes sexual preference.
Friday, October 17, 2008
Happy Birthday to Pants!
1. His nickname is Pants.
2. I like to call him M'Adam haha.
3. He likes to sing the wrong lyrics to songs.
4. He has an amazing singing voice.
5. He dresses better than most guys I know.
6. He's really funny.
7. He can paint really well.
8. He is very good at decorating.
9. He is going to school to be a graphic designer.
10. He always has great halloween costumes.
He and I became friends in 2003, and he's been really great. He is very compassionate, very sweet, and a lot of fun.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADAM PANTS MCGEE! I LOVE YOU!
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Since then....another fun post
10 years ago: I was 17. I was probably working at Hollywood Video, dating Dallas, and was in Junior year of high school. I drove a Ford Taurus station wagon haha.
5 years ago: I was 22. 2003 was a rough year for me. I was dealing with an ex BF and his crazy new GF, my current BF dumping me, and my grandpa dying. But this was the year I started being friends with Becci and Adam, which turned into a great friendship. We all went to CA this year to audition for American Idol.
3 years ago: I was 23. I was going to UVSC and decided to major in Social Work. I worked at the testing center. Ken and I met for the first time around then, but as some of you know it didn't work out. I felt out of place being one of the "older" single girls at school and church. I went through a bit of a crisis but got through it by dating a lot of guys!
1 year ago: I was 26 and it was shortly after my wedding. By this point, we were already back from the honeymoon though and back to normal life.
1 month ago: I was celebrating my dad's birthday. His bday is a weekish before mine.
1 week ago: I was fine. Jase and Killian both kinda got sick so they got to stay home while I went to work. Fun times.
1 day ago: I layed around all day on the couch, sick.
I...I....I....a fun little quizzy thing
I am: a good friend, I think
I think: the human race is starting to go to crap
I know: a lot of really fun people
I want: specifically...my money amount to grow haha....and to have a baby soon
I dislike: a lot of things, actually
I miss: singing and not having responsibility
I fear: losing loved ones.
I feel: pretty good right now
I hear: Lloyd and Marv talking (2 guys at my work)
I smell: me haha
I crave: water
I cry: a lot...during confrontation, when i'm stressed out, when i'm happy, during sappy movies, etc.
I usually: try to be friends with everyone
I search: for inner peace and happiness
I regret: hurting certain people, being mean to certain people, not standing up for myself, not taking risks
I love: my hubby, my son, my mom, my friends, my family, talking, singing, dancing, being happy
I care: about myself, where the world is going, gay marriage, my job, my looks (too much actually),etc
I always: feel tired and stressed out
I worry:that I will feel good about myself, that I will never sing again, that my loved ones will die, that I will run over an animal someday
I am not: happy with myself, fully
I remember: things I really shouldn't. I need to learn to let things go too.
I believe: that some things happen for a reason
I dance: in my mind, a lot. Sometimes I dance in the kitchen and in the grocery store
I sing: well. I'd like to do it more.
I don't always: tend to others needs before my own
I argue: more than I should.
I write: in my blog
I win:at cards when I play with my gma haha
I lose: myself sometimes
I wish: I had more money, a baby and self esteem
I listen: to the grinding of machines all day
I don't understand: why people drive so crazy, why people have no common sense, why people make such stupid decisions
I can usually be found: at work haha
I am scared: death, not being happy, not raising my son the right way
I need:to be more positive and happy with the way I look and the person I am
I forget: hardly anything
I am happy: when listening to a great song, when singing, when with my husband, when I don't feel like crap, when I feel good about myself, when I feel I've done a good job at something, when I feel people like me and want to be my friend, when I don't have to worry about dumb stuff, when all my bills are paid, when my house is clean, etc.
Welcome
So to start this blog, I think I should probably tell a little about myself. I work at Komatsu Equipment as the corporate receptionist. For the past year, I've been doing half days at reception and half days for warranty, but due to warranty being slow, I've moved back to the front desk full time. Next month, I will be moving over to our accounting department to cover for Kristen, who will be going on maternity leave. I'll have worked here for 3 years in January of next year. My work is actually where I met my husband, Jase. He and I both started work on the same day and went through our orientation together. He was in the I.T. dept. and was usually the one who fixed my computer problems, so we started talking. At the time, I was still with my ex, so it made things a little complicated. The relationship I was in, was going downhill, and I knew it was going to end. It was a very difficult time of my life, but I made it through and well...here I am. Jase and I got married a year ago, and he had full custody of his son, so I became an instant mom. My stepson, Killian is about to turn 4 and really is a great kid. Jase's ex doesn't come around so Killian sees me as his mom. I really love being a mom!



After a couple hard months, Jase and I finally bought and moved into our first house. Our apartment was starting to turn really trashy so it was good we got out when we did. We now live in Murray, and our neighborhood is really great. Most everyone is friendly, quiet, and
respectful. There's only a little bit of work we'll have to do to make it our home too. The main living room has some wallpaper I don't particularly care for, so we're currently in the plans to re-do that room. When we get pregnant, we'll figure out what to do with the future baby room. We will shortly be having a friend of mine stay with us, but when she moves, we're going to turn the room downstairs into my singing room. It's currently an orangy color so it'll be painted and accented with all things music. I haven't been able to sing like I really want to, because we didn't have space in our apartment so I am so excited to finally have a room of my own. My cats also really like our house. I currently have 4 cats, Matsu (named after my work), Mia, Lily (short for lil one), and Marshmallow.


Mia Lily


Marshmallow Matsu
Marshy is actually my sister's cat, but we're keeping him until they can find their own place. They had to move out of the house they were in and are staying with friends so it was hard to take the pets with them. But if they take too long, we may be so attached to Marshy that we won't wanna give him back. He's such a cool kitty. He's huge and has fluffy white fur, hence the name haha. But he's so friendly and easy going so it's great to have him around.
We also have a cockatiel named Nibs. I named her that because she likes to nibble with her beak. I never thought I was the type of person to have a bird as a pet, but she's grown on me a lot. Jase's ex was really into birds so they had at least 5 cockatiels and Jase grew to love them. One day at the petstore, he started looking at them and he and Nibs just had a great connection. It was almost like they'd met before and were reunited. So I caved and let him get her. At first she scared the crap out of me, cause I have fears of things that can peck out my eyes. But as time passed, I learned how to talk to her, how to pet her and other fun stuff. She still prefers Jase, but at least she'll let me pet her. But I'm still working on some things, so I'm sure she and I will get better.Well I think that's all for now. I'll post as things happen or as I find some fun quizzy things to do. :)