I’ve been thinking a lot lately about being a stay at home mom when my baby arrives. I’ve been reading some other blogs a lot lately, and checking out facebook pages of some of my friends and I wonder if I could be happy and entertained staying home all day. Part of the reason is also because I’ve been in a non-work mode. My job isn’t stressful or anything. In fact, it’s the opposite. Most of the day, I have nothing to do, so I’ve been watching a lot of movies to keep my mind entertained. But whatever the reason, I just can’t seem to get the motivation to wake up on time to get ready, and sometimes I cry over the fact I have to go to work.
Jase’s job currently isn’t helping with that situation either, which makes it twice as hard. Jase’s last job sadly went under so he was kinda forced to find another job. It’s good because it’s a steady income and his last job was 3 weeks late with every pay check it seems, but he really doesn’t like the job he got and doesn’t feel like it’s where he should be. It’s depressing for him to go to a job that he doesn’t like and doesn’t feel like he’s worth anything, so it makes it really hard in the morning not to just call in sick for the day. But it’s only the 2nd week, and I’m trying to be optimistic that we will find something else so he doesn’t have to stay there very long.
Since my last blog, we’ve had a couple more appointments with Killian’s therapist. Our last appointment was with the medical doctor instead of the therapist. In order to seek out medical options, we have to visit with a medical doctor because the social workers aren’t able to prescribe medication. We met with Dr. Anderson for about an hour and a half and he asked us and Killian quite a few questions. He said that there’s no doubt that Killian has an attention problem, but if it were his child, he would refrain from putting him on medication until he starts kindergarten or first grade. I definitely don’t like the idea of putting Killian on medication, but with how pushy his daycare has been, it seemed like something to try. But we’re going to try fish oil caplets and continuing our nightly tutoring sessions and see how far we can get. I guess if we have to put him in a preschool that has less children, it’ll be better for him in the long run. His teacher said that he’s doing much better with the phonics he was behind on, so we’re now going to try to learn the letters A-G. After my session last night, I can tell it’s going to be more difficult than I thought. Wish me luck!
I have my next baby appointment next Monday. I know I get to listen to the baby’s heartbeat, and I’m excited to hear that he/she is doing ok. It’s about another month before we can find out the sex of the baby, and I’m so stoked for that! I want to find out before Mother’s Day so when we have our big family get togethers, I can tell everyone at once! I thought about doing something fun and making Killian a shirt that says “I’m going to have a little brother/sister” and see how many people actually figure it out. Should be fun haha.
This upcoming Thursday, I will be 12 weeks along. This marks the end of my first trimester and I’m really hoping that my nausea dissipates and that I get more energy. I don’t sleep very well, so by the time I get home after work, I’m so tired I don’t want to do anything. Our house work has slacked off a little because of it, because it’s not fair for Jase to do everything himself.
Brittania is also moving out at the end of April, so after she moves, we will need to get things moved around so we can paint the baby’s room. I can’t tell you how flippin excited I am to paint the baby’s room! I’ve got 6 colors picked out and I plan to do each wall of the room a different color. One wall is cornered, so it could actually be done in 3 colors if I wanted to, but I’m not sure what I will do yet. I want my friend Adam to paint some designs on one of the walls along with the baby’s name so the colors pop. Another goal of mine is to get my front room finished, but we’ll see how that goes. It’s been much more of a pain than I thought to tear down the wallpaper so that’s gotta come down first. After that it should be easy, because all we’re doing is painting and putting up a chair rail. Now I just gotta get the energy!
We reactivated our gym membership last night, and I’m glad. I have been reading a lot and am a little worried that the extra baby weight is going to make things tough on me. I’m not super active anyway, so I don’t want the added weight and aches to get me down. I can’t do anything that’s really active, but the treadmills and some weight lifting would be really good for me to get my back in shape and my heart ready for the breathing.
Hopefully this all will turn into a good thing for all of us. *crossing my fingers*
