MS Walk

Well it’s been a couple weeks since the MS Walk, but I’ve been meaning to share my experience. I think this is our 4^th or 5^th year doing the MS Walk but this one was a bit hectic, given my pregnant emotions. It started by us being late picking up my mom and Killian, so we didn’t get to trax on time and were late for registration. When we finally arrived, my mom registered for us while Jase and I went on a search for the free food. We wandered all over outside, and then were told the goodies were inside, where we just left. By this point, I really had to pee and I was worried we wouldn’t be ready for the walk start. We finally got our bagels, donuts and goodies and put on our shirts and numbers. After all the speaking and announcements, we finally got to walk.

The walk starts at the Gateway, and loops around the surrounding neighborhood, passed the old Children’s Museum and back. I think it’s total is about 3 miles. We first started walking and got a little behind, because I’d forgotten to pee and had to stop at the porta potties. While lagging behind, we caught up to a group called “Bob’s Army”. They were a rather large group and one of their members, I presume to be Bob, was walking with a cane and therefore walking slower. My emotions took over and I instantly started crying. It really touched me that this man’s whole team waited for him, making them one of the last teams walking. I’d been complaining about so many things, and it just humbled me to see this man. I’d felt terrible for all the things I had whined about, because compared to that, they were so trivial. I complain about my back hurting, and being tired and this man was doing it without complaint, slow, with a cane.

I finally recouped from my emotions, and we continued to walk. At the first rest stop, Harmon’s was giving out fruit and granola bars and a lot of people stopped to snack. We didn’t stop for long and ended up back in the middle of the group. From that point on, we walked with no problems and no emotions. The weather was a bit chilly, but I’m very glad it didn’t rain. We finished the walk and got back on the train to head home.

The rest of the day was emotional and tiring haha. After we got back to our car, we decided to get some lunch. We stopped at Subway for me and Killian and went to Apollo Burger for Jase and my mom. At Subway, we went through the drive through and the order just kept getting messed up. With my emotions being the way they were, I didn’t handle it very well and got mad at Jase. We ended up getting in an argument at Apollo Burger and Jase got out of the car and ended up walking home. My mom, Killy and I went to her house to relax and after we made up, Jase came over. Later that night we dyed our Easter eggs and watched movies. With the exception of me, the day was pretty good and it was a nice walk.

Update

For those who don’t know, I absolutely LOVE to read other people’s blogs! I find myself checking my blog every day just to see if anyone has updated theirs. I love to see how people are doing, what their houses look like and get fun ideas from the ones that have kids. If there are people out there that enjoy reading my blog, as much as I read theirs, I should really try to update more often.

Over the past month or so, I feel like we’ve been so busy, but I’m not sure how busy we have actually been. We did get some great things accomplished though, and some things which are still to come, but I’m optimistic that we’ll continue on a good path and continue to be happy.

I have still been thinking about being a stay at home mom. I’m still in the mode of not wanting to go to work, and my job is still so boring! The past week or so, I was given a couple decent sized projects to work on, but now that I’m finished with those, I’m back to being bored. I’m very glad that our IT guys took down the firewall, because I’ve been able to watch my favorite shows instead of watching nothing but movies. It’s nice to have more variety.

Jase is still at his sucky job, but he’s been really great and kept on trucking. Because his last job decided to stiff him on the last month of his pay, he had to work to get caught up on the couple things we fell behind on. But I’m glad to report, we’re back on our feet and he has a few jobs in the works. I just hope he ends up somewhere that he loves and that he can work for awhile.

Killian is also doing very well, and thanks to our nightly tutor sessions, he was able to move up to the next class at school. His behavior has been so much better and it’s really great that we could find something that helped him without putting him on medication. Our doctor said at some point medication may be a good idea, but he’s only 4 and that just seems too young to me.

On another Killian note, Jase and I had “the talk” with Jen, Killian’s biological mother. We have been thinking about talking to her about letting me adopt Killian for awhile, but when we got to a point that it was a good idea, something happened. We decided to buy our house first, then had some financial stuff come up, etc. Jase and Jen had a debt collection come up about the time we bought our house, and she worked with us to pay it off. She asked me to send her the paid in full letter when we paid our portion, so I used that opportunity as a jumping point and told her we wanted to talk to her about Killian. We arranged a time to talk, and although I was nervous, it went pretty well. She had suspected the reason for the talk, and had already talked to her therapist about it. Her therapist suggested that she think about it for 24 hours, but I told her she could take more time. That’s a huge decision, and in my opinion, not something that one could decide on in 24 hours. We haven’t heard back yet, and it’s probably approaching a couple weeks, but I’m still optimistic that she will be cooperative. She hasn’t seen him in over a year, and he doesn’t even know who she is, so at this point, it would be hard for her to come back in his life. She also really only seemed interested in the fact that if Killian wants to know her, that we will let him. I found that a bit interesting, because I think it would be hard to not tell him about her. He doesn’t really look like me, I don’t know anything about the first year and a half of his life, so I think even if I tried to keep it from him, he’d figure it out. But Killian and I have developed a bond and it will always be there, so if he has some curiosity about the kind of person Jen is, he can find out for himself.

My last baby appointment went well. Hearing the heartbeat was so amazing and it made the whole thing seem so much more awesome. My tummy is also starting to get hard now, so I get poked a lot haha. Jase is being so awesome and really making me feel great, so I love being pregnant even more. My next appointment is in a little over a week, and I’m sure things will continue to go well. I don’t get to find out the sex of the baby til the week after Mother’s Day, which upset me a bit, because I had a fun idea to tell everyone what it is. I guess I will have to come up with something else, because I don’t think I can keep it a secret until Father’s Day.

Things with Brittania’s move have changed a bit as well. She was supposed to move out this upcoming weekend, but sadly, her sister flaked out on her and cancelled the move. Last week she found another place and had scheduled to move out on the 18^th, but then found out that children are not allowed to live at this particular condo, so that cancelled that deal. I unfortunately had to tell her that we need her out by the end of May, but I hope she can find something that she can be happy with. I’m sure it’s hard to find a place with roommates when you have your daughter every week and every other weekend.

Well, I think that’s about it for now. Until next time, thanks to those who actually read my rambling.